Happy New Year 2010!

horny

quick post. a different post btw.

ok, so im uber horny now. i think im fully/well loaded and i think i really need a release but yeah im gonna hold it. im yet to experience a proper wet dream all my life so hope tonite i have one. but, no expectation coz i tried before and i didn't get any. i think my body was so used to 'manual release', it never understands an 'auto release'. i've been on 'manual gear' long before i reached puberty so my system was all set to 'manual' before it could even start with 'auto'.

im not going to write more coz im well uncomfortable now.

so here's some pictures.

Saltwater blood meets spirit mountain

Sorry V, I know this is well late but I think it's better late than never.

I should post this earlier but I just don't know how to write. I wanted to write something nice coz you've been nice to me; commenting on my posts, giving me courage and so on. This is actually last week's post but I kept it as a draft, until today.

So I have to say thanks a lot, and it's really nice having you as a pal. And thanks for the special post, that's really nice.

Anyone who reads my blog (if any) please visit V's blog (listed on my favourites).

I'll try to update this blog as often as possible.

Have a nice day!

Jay

I want this

But I can only dream.

Later

Don't know what to write today so here's some pics.

Have a nice day!

Untitled

I am really tired and sleepy.

So, post today might have to wait until later.

Have a nice day!

Trying

Honestly I couldn't really forget him. It's really hard not to think about him everyday. He lives and works nearby so there are still chances of me meeting him around.

This blog was supposedly dedicated to him but I am trying to get over him so I will post other things next time.

So, until then.

Is it over?

This is the second week I appear offline to him on YM.

Nothing really happened between us. He was being nice and cheerful to me. And I did same to him.

I just made the decision to leave him for good.

I liked him so much, but I know it's just wrong.

It's so hard fighting own feelings ...

It made me wish I never met him in the first place.

I am bleeding. It's painful, but never mind, I know it will heal over time. I just need to hang on a little while.

Struggle

It's been a while since my last post. I was updating my other blog so I was left with no idea for this blog.

OK so I am still not over him. I miss him everyday like crazy, and I wish he is here by my side like he used to be. But two weeks back I didn't see him. He went offline for about a week, and I didn't see him around. It was kinda frustrating coz I was missing him so bad. Still, I didn't do anything. I had a bad move on him last time and it didn't went well. I don't want to do the same mistake again. I know we drifted apart since then and I know I will only make it worse by making any more move.

Only this week he started to appear online again. I wish he would chat to me but it never happened. Today I saw him, and I smiled at him. He smiled back at me. And that was it.

I ymed him in the afternoon to say 'Hi'. But he didn't reply me. Now he's online but I am not going to say hi again.

The Guy

This isn't my first blog. This isn't my first post either. But I deleted my earlier posts coz I feel lame about it.

OK so this blog is about someone I used to love (still now, but I know it's impossible). He looks a lot like him in the picture, if not better. They got similar features; the eyes, the eyebrows, the face, lips, hair, even the body ... the only thing differs him from this guy is the black shirt. He dislikes black colour, especially on clothes. The first time I saw him, I thought he was a model or a celeb.

Few months back we were like very close friends. We hang out often, mostly just the two of us, went shopping together, ate together ... and played together (not that dirty play OK). He would prefer to accompany me than hang out with his other friends. I thought we were like couple. I was almost sure that he liked me. But I was wrong. He likes girl ... he didn't felt the same way I feel to him.

Now, we are like casual friends who don't see each other that much. I accidentally met him today, and said hi to him, and he was like smiled and joked to me but that's all it.

There's a lot to say about him.

But until next post.