sigh.
i wish i could think more positively. i mean, it never really crossed my mind that im truly happy of myself. i guess i am never happy of what i am. there's a huge part of me i'd like to banish. i wish i could be like someone else.
the only thing i ever succeed in is my education. i consider myself in a class high above from many, yet i never really feel happy about it. perhaps it's bcoz im doing something i have to do, not what i want to do.
i know i could turn back to what i am really passionate about, but i think it's kinda late. i am not young anymore and i need to earn money to live. so i have to pick up whatever in front of me and not look back.
i never had serious thoughts about my future. i had blurry images of what i wanted to be. perhaps i am yet to know what i truly want in life.
i guess i just need to carry on with what i have now.
sigh.
The Year in Review - Rosemary - Late Winter 2014
10 years ago
darling...
ReplyDeletehave more friends and meet more friends,
have a happy life-laugh-go shopping, and if education makes u happy, enroll the new courses-or, maybe its time to continue with master-phd...its a whole new year darling- u deserve a treat.
happy new year!
thanks.
ReplyDeletewell i have lots of friends but i still feel lonely. i have no problem with education, in fact im now doing phd. but it didn't make me happy.
i don't know. maybe i need someone to cheer my life up ;P
happy new year to you too suf!
ohh darling i'm proud to hear that u're doing ur PhD.
ReplyDeletemaybe the stress-so-makes-u-empty, i can tell- i did mine in Columbia uni in NY. the 1st year -SUCKS-with course-works-no life but the 2nd & 3rd is where i meet & live with my MEN.
cheer up darling...have some1, accept at least 1