Struggle

It's been a while since my last post. I was updating my other blog so I was left with no idea for this blog.

OK so I am still not over him. I miss him everyday like crazy, and I wish he is here by my side like he used to be. But two weeks back I didn't see him. He went offline for about a week, and I didn't see him around. It was kinda frustrating coz I was missing him so bad. Still, I didn't do anything. I had a bad move on him last time and it didn't went well. I don't want to do the same mistake again. I know we drifted apart since then and I know I will only make it worse by making any more move.

Only this week he started to appear online again. I wish he would chat to me but it never happened. Today I saw him, and I smiled at him. He smiled back at me. And that was it.

I ymed him in the afternoon to say 'Hi'. But he didn't reply me. Now he's online but I am not going to say hi again.

The Guy

This isn't my first blog. This isn't my first post either. But I deleted my earlier posts coz I feel lame about it.

OK so this blog is about someone I used to love (still now, but I know it's impossible). He looks a lot like him in the picture, if not better. They got similar features; the eyes, the eyebrows, the face, lips, hair, even the body ... the only thing differs him from this guy is the black shirt. He dislikes black colour, especially on clothes. The first time I saw him, I thought he was a model or a celeb.

Few months back we were like very close friends. We hang out often, mostly just the two of us, went shopping together, ate together ... and played together (not that dirty play OK). He would prefer to accompany me than hang out with his other friends. I thought we were like couple. I was almost sure that he liked me. But I was wrong. He likes girl ... he didn't felt the same way I feel to him.

Now, we are like casual friends who don't see each other that much. I accidentally met him today, and said hi to him, and he was like smiled and joked to me but that's all it.

There's a lot to say about him.

But until next post.